Le Sigh, I still haven’t lost the ten pounds I regained after my triumphant first diet. Every morning I wake up, and I say, “Today is the day! I will eat healthier! I will exercise! I will stop watching TV, read more books, find a hobby….oooh, look shiny blogs to read.” Two hours later I am still on the sofa, staring at my computer, trying to will myself to get up off my ass and go exercise (I use dvd’s so I can do it whenever.) However, with this latest attempt, whenever has turned into never.
I hate that my body rebelled against me. I hate that when you are 5′2″ (okay, 5′ 1 3/4″) every pound shows! I really hate the idea that I am actually going to have to be a responsible (ech) ADULT and watch what I eat and drink for THE REST OF MY LIFE. Which sucks.
I want to be 20 again, not for the blissful innocence, but just for the physique I SO took for granted. I want 1) the ability to survive on a diet of ramen noodles, popcorn, Mountain Dew and cigarettes and 2) the metabolism to handle eating like crap.
But, I am now 30-something. The big empty void of adult-hood where you know the right thing to do, you just don’t want to do it! (And you can’t make me, so na na!)
All right, all right. Enough of this pity party. I want to lose the 10 pounds before going to Italy, so it looks like I need to suck up all of my misplaced self righteousness (and my growing love handles) and do some actual, physical activity. Okay….any second now…motivation will kick in. Hmm…I still need to check my Facebook news feed. I’ll just do that first, and then I’ll exercise! (really, I swear!)
Thanks to the tireless tutelage of Mountain Lover, I can now embed videos into my blog using Youtube! I realize that I am WAY behind the times when it comes to this particular technical skill. I should be ashamed that it took me so long to figure it out. Quite honestly, I lean on John a lot when it comes to the technical aspect of my blog. The only other time I put a video on this blog, he did it for me, and I never even bothered to ask him how he did it.
I call this one, “A Picture of Grace and Beauty”
At the end, she says, “Mommy, a flute, a flute again!” She likes to pretend that her drum sticks are flutes. I have a video of that too, but I am having some technical difficulties getting that one uploaded on to Youtube. I’ll post a link when I get it figured out.
I do apologize for the quality of the video, it was taken with my camera, and not our fancy expensive video camera that stays upstairs nice and safe, which also guarantees it’s not at all useful.
When I went to Colorado this past trip, I introduced my parents to the “Mob Wars” game on Facebook. They fell in love with the game and have played it obsessively ever since (hey, I come by my obsessive personality honestly.) They are currently on vacation in Hawaii (poor them) and were worried that they would lose control of their mobs while they were gone. So, instead of house sitting, I am mob sitting. Its a LOT of work to run three mobs! I may not blog for awhile. Forgive me.
(PS. My mom is totally kicking my ass when it comes to mob members. At last count, she was up to 120. Woman’s a fiend!)
So, I am a huge stalker. I love reading people’s blogs, especially people I knew a long time ago. I also joined Facebook and can now stalk a lot more people, and all those people’s friends. Its kind of fun, but it makes me feel a little dirty. Maybe I should actually talk to some of these people, just so they know I am stalking them. Hmmm…nah.
instead of just lame. Okay, not just lame, but the biggest lame-o in lamesville.
I had my blog tested to see what it rated…
Which, could mean a couple of things. I have successfully learned to express myself without using bad language or potty humor. Or I am lame. I keep going back and forth. One thing is for sure, I am definitely not gritty enough for the streets, so its a darn good thing I live in suburbia!
Okay, so the weirdest thing just happened. I know all of you who have the time to read blogs also have the time to do what I did tonight…randomly look at blogs that other people read. Now, there are some blogs that you expect to see…those of friends back home for example. And sure, there are blogs you are surprised to see…random “stay at home mom” blogs that hit you where you live. But every now an then, you are surprised. I followed a few links to here and to there, and found someone who had linked to MY blog. Someone I had never met and didn’t know. (I am not mentioning names because I have to admit that I am flattered, and I don’t want to be delinked!) Part of my issue with blogging was that I honestly felt like I was writing into the ether, kind of like Christian Slater in Pump of the Volume. Maybe a few people who I talked to on a daily basis anyway, or maybe just family we left in Colorado, were reading this. And , within the last few months I realized that a lot of people were using this to keep up on our adventure out in New Jersey, even thought they weren’t emailing or responding, they were still “following.” I had no idea that people would lead to people who would lead to people who would actually be interested in what I have to say. It kind of freaks me out. It falls under that category of, “I can’t possibly be that interesting.” Okay, so I send this message, to anyone listening…feel free to comment on my blog, even if it is to correct errors I have made, to make fun of something I have said, or request information on any subject you feel is relevant. It feels good to be considered worth reading.
